A Simple Thing Called Love

BEST
1. Female Friend: a few actually.
2. Vacation: any vacation to meet my lovely family in Msia (:
3. Time of day: every moment that i see her. <3
4. Day of the week: Wednesdays, haha.

LAST
1. Person(s)you saw: my maid
2. Talked to: Sofia
3. Hugged: cant rmb, hmm, more like cant say.
4. Texted: guess who? Hydrogen. <3
5. IM: Sathia

TODAY
1. What are you doing now: this?
2. Wearing: black shorts with garfield tee

TOMORROW
1. Is: 24 feb 2007, hahha
2. Got any plans: studying at je lib with friends
3. Goal: below 12 points for O's
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: cant see Hydrogen, tsk ):

FAVES
1. Number(s): 3, 25, 8
2. Color: black and red
3. Season: autumn

CURRENTLY
1. Missing someone: perhaps a little.
2. Mood: stressed
3. Wanting: a reply from her, even if she did go out with that *toot*
4. listening to: the rumbling of the fan

TRUE/FALSE
I am a cuddler: true
I am a perfectionist: false, juz a wannabe.
I am left handed: false
I am addicted to friendster: false
I bite my nails: when im stressed, nervous, tensed or worried.
I can be paranoid at times: true
I enjoy country music: depends.
I enjoy jazz music: false
I enjoy smoothies: true
I enjoy talking on the phone: true
I have a hard time paying attention: true
I have a lot to learn: very true
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: true
I have all my grandparents: false
I have at least one brother and/orsister: false
I have a good sense of humor: true, to a certain extent
I have had broken a bone: false
I have told someone I loved them and didn't mean it: true
I have told someone I loved them and meant it: true

common tests tdae were good.
except for lit which again, i didnt study for.
i was so stressed juz now larh.
i sat outside the classroom alone, cramming up bio stuffs for the paper.
if not for the pretty woman in the opposite classroom, i'd have broken down.
lots to study this weekend.
gosh, i really need to push myself and study even harder.
must strive for distinctions.
okay my pizza is calling me now.
gotta go have dinner.
chaoz.

21 February 2007

11:18 PM

revising geog now.
but im not really focussing.
she came in tdae.
and i didnt want her to see my face larh.
or else she'll be reminded abt the incident what.
my life's in a mess rite now.
the relationships so complicated.
relationship with mummy juz sucks.
i havent spoken to her since she went off overseas.
and did i mention?
she went off without telling me.
relationship with daddy is not any better.
he juz calls up everyday and enquires abt me.
he doesnt talk to me, he juz enquires from MY MAID.
and i have no idea where the hell is he.
relationship with guy SPACE friends is deteriorating.
which is kinda good i guess.
but that also means that ive got no distractions.
and that brings me to the most disturbing thing.
the relationship with hydrogen. [does it even exist?]
i called her last night.
i was juz so disturbed by evrything and you knw, i had this feeling that something bad was gonna happen.
i couldnt concentrate on studying at all and i really needed her.
but she said she was busy so i juz let it go.
and she didnt msg or call aft that larh.
fine, i knw i shdnt expect things frm her.
thats why im not blaming her.
to summarize it all, ive lost hope.
and the feeling of losing hope is a sadness i cant explain.
beneath the fake smiles and laughter, there is smth more.
i mean, cmon larh, ive held on for a year plus.
and we are nowhere near close.
i think its time i gave up anw.
each time we msg/talk, it upsets me a lot.
at the end of the convo, she said "see u on wed" when it was only sunday larh.
it juz makes me feel so disappointed, angry and upset.
actually whats the point of talking abt this?
i might as well spend time studying smth.
im so sure im gonna screw common tests.
i cant seem to concentrate larh.
with a disturbed mind and heart, im definitely gonna screw it.
and that will juz add on to my worries.
im sorry and i love you hydrogen.

16 February 2007

9:33 PM

so she did come to sch tdae.
how sweet of her to let me know beforehand that shes coming juz coz i was so restless without seeing her and having difficulties sleeping and studying and surviving, as a matter of fact.
how sweet.
oh, do note the sarcasm.
the withdrawal symptoms of this ridiculous addiction is unbearable.
goodbye, world.
till we meet again.

14 February 2007

8:55 PM

valentine's day.
im missing her so much man.
we didnt even spend 10 mins tgether.
im so disappointed larh.
im in sucha terrible mood.
tsk.

11 February 2007

12:50 PM

after a long, long time i cried myself to sleep last night.
no larh, not her fault.
i owe her for the many days she sent me to bed smiling.
juz realised that some things are so hard to get.
tdae is for studying.
haha.
coz i spent the whole of ystrdae shopping for v day gifts.
i think i shd juz let the guys knw that its not for ya'll.
ha ha ha! ;D
still gotta get chocs on tuesday and im ready.
but im darn afraid larh.
like, how am i gonna give it to her?
can i say what i want to?
which is, "happy v day sweetheart"
i dont think so.
i dnoe larh.
juz go there and do it i guess.
oh, hows the new blogskin arh?
planning to put password at my blog.
im still thinking abt it.
okay larh, gotta get back to the books now.
tsk.

10 February 2007

1:48 PM

FIRST HUG ON 09 FEB 2006!

one hug took her a year okay.
so not easy to get larh.
how long will it take to get love?

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